Hey babe! How are you?

Holy full moon hangover over here...

What a wild ride it has been the past few days. I swear I was picked up by the full moon and thrown into a portal!

The other side of it was a timeline that I had taken a detour from 25 years ago. I landed back on the path and looked around in surprise, dusted myself off and started dancing.

It felt jolting, but was a pleasant surprise.

It set me back down gently, and as I looked around I was filled with the most enormous sense of gratitude.

I recognized that the past 25 years have been a phase of massive growth for me.

In 2001, I found myself receiving HUGE downloads of information. I filled journals and notebooks as I processed it all. It was about a future version of myself and the life I would be living. It was about a mission I was accepting and I knew I had a lot of work to do to become the person I was seeing in these visions. 

I started diving deeper into my studies. I started painting again and the images that were coming through felt like manifestations of the visions I was having.

One in particular was of a woman in a purple dress wearing a golden crown, standing on a grassy hill under a waning moon with her hands up in what I believe to be victory, gratitude, success. I saw her as a future version of myself at the time, but now I see her as that past version of me standing up and reclaiming her power. She was accepting the mission she was being given.

At this point, things were falling apart big time in my marriage, but I hoped that we would be able to get it together and fall back in love like we had so many times before.

That didn't happen. 

In early 2002, I became a single mama of three kids aged five and under. I found myself needing to figure out how to support myself and these babes.

I knew it was time to further my education.

I was already an herbalist, energy worker, midwifery assistant, childbirth educator and doula.

But I knew those things weren't reliable to create consistent income quickly or in the quantity that I needed to survive in Southern California with three babes.

I knew I wanted my kids in waldorf education {had to stop homeschooling due to my ex wanting the kids in school suddenly- these wild mountain kids who were raised off grid, traveling, living most of the time without electricity and television. These kids who had no idea what was going on in "the real world"} which was expensive, so in order to do this I had to figure a way to make $$$$$$ and do it quickly.

I settled on going back to school to get my massage license and then go even deeper to get my Holistic Health Practitioner certification.

Within 4 weeks I had my massage license, and then a month later I rented a cute little spot in my little town that I moved to when I left the mountain home where I had been living for the past few years.

I joined a few women who also rented space in this cute cottage spa.

I was able to build my business very quickly and establish my herbal spa and wellness center.

This was the most beautiful situation. I felt like I manifested it.

I was even able to rent my dream home.

But then disaster struck and a fire came through my town and burned much of it down.

I lost so many clients who had lost their homes. Many moved down to the city because the cost of rebuilding was immense and it was a lengthy process to do so.

Suddenly I was forced to move from the cottage and try to find a job elsewhere.

I also lost my rental home because I just couldn't afford it any longer.

I was able to stay with a friend who had a open room pop up in her university area house that she rented rooms to college kids in.

I got a job in a massage clinic as a therapist and also worked the front desk to be able to make enough $$ to live on.

It was wild. It was tough.

It was the beginning of "the great decline" as I like to refer to it as.

Cuz to be honest, it didn't get easier or better for a long ass time. It was a chapter in my life that I learned a lot in, but that almost broke me.

I say almost because there were many times where I almost gave up, but then things would get a little bit easier for a moment to give me hope, and then it would return to the difficult normal that I would just get used to.

I started having intense health issues after a few years of the intense grind. I was working like 6 jobs, going to school for two certifications, and mothering my 3 babes.

There were good times in there too, I don't wanna sound like it was all hardship. I was doing amazing things too like making art and doing art shows and making clothes and doing fashion shows... did a little traveling, explored some beautiful places, had some fun for sure... But the whole time there was this underlying stress to survive.

I just knew I was here for more and that I just had to keep going.

I ended up losing my housing again and having to admit failure and move back to the midwest in 2007. I figured having my family close by would make it better.

So, if you've known me for awhile, you know it didn't get better at that point either, in fact it got so much worse. 2008 was the worst year of my adult life.

But I won't go into that story today because I just want you to see how that timeline jump in 2002 started me on a path of big lessons and massive changes.

That was where my manifestation skills kind went on the fritz. They'd emerge here and there over the next 25 years to keep me hopeful, but then things would just slowly unravel again.

Now, when I say that I can remember how it felt to be on that 2001 timeline before I jumped, please know that I realize that my life was not always easy. But I swear to you, something shifted and I felt it big time.

Also know that I am one who moves very quickly. I am here on the fast track, so I am constantly growing and shifting.

BUT THIS, I tell ya, it was different.

Flash forward to Wednesday, the full moon in Aquarius, in gate 41 of the human design mandala, the BEGINNING of the next chapter, not just for me, but for all of us.

Especially the trailblazers.

So I was hanging out at the beach in San Diego, at hippie beach, selling the dyed shirts I made, talking to anyone that would listen about human design and the alchemist, my newest offering.

The sun started to set and I started to break down my set up.

I was right next to the full moon drum circle so after I put everything in my car I returned to dance for a bit.

It felt so good.

I have been to soooo many drum circles on that very piece of grass over the past 32 years since I first came to California.

I have danced, chanted and sang and made many full moon wishes on that very spot.

So it struck me how perfect it was that I was there for the full moon in Aquarius.

I made my full moon wishes and they were big, not gonna lie. I have decided to always ask for the most. Might as well, right?

I eventually left and got in my car to drive back up the coast to OC, but had the massive urge to pull over into this park that I have spent a lot of time at.

I saw the moon between the palm trees and took some pics and then I was struck with this huge wave of energy.

I saw flashes of images, like watching a movie.

I saw myself as a tiny kid, with a super high fever, surrounded by angels, myself in 1993 during my big awakening when I was told to start meditating and learning about spiritualism, 1994 me when I did my first yoga set on that mountain and had reiki energy spontaneously course through me, later that year when I had a vision of a woman telling me to start on my path learning how to be a healing practitioner, 2001 me, and then the images progressed from there, and they showed me moments of growth and expansion.

I witnessed how much I have grown and then the last image was present day me, this woman who has accomplished so much, who has really done the work to grow.

I was filled with such appreciation and gratitude.

I realized that I am so close to that version of myself that I witnessed 25 years ago.

I am on the precipice of becoming her!

I am a few steps away from her now.

She used to feel so far away, and now she is so close.

I see how she is getting closer every day. I see how with the tools I have now, the process has become much quicker and easier.

So trust me when I say I understand the feeling of overwhelm and exhaustion when first realizing you're here to do big things.

And also trust that I know that it's never an overnight process that takes you from where you are to where you want to be.

But, because I have gone through it, I've developed tools and process and protocols that have made it easier for myself.

I am so excited to share these with you now, so that you don't have to spend the next 25 years becoming a future version of yourself that is capable of doing the big things you came here to do.

But first things first, I have a little taste of of the work for you.

This is the beginning of the trail.

The start of the journey.

I have a 2 hour workshop for you that will prepare you for the big work we're gonna do next month together.

It's FREE to watch for two more weeks, then it will go back to it's home in the pre-work section of my new offering.

This weekend is the perfect time for you to do this work.

We are in the waning moon time, which allows us to be more open to letting go of old ways of doing things, and to new ideas, new ways, and new beliefs.

This work is about witnessing yourself as the version of you that came here to do the work that only YOU can do. We each have a special task and mission to complete.

Those of us that came here to help humanity evolve at this time are coming back together to do this work NOW.

If you're feeling a sense of urgency, GOOD! 

Let this feeling energize you and motivate you to take inspired action.

Take a step forward and {re}claim your place at the forefront of the movement.